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Probably not, but the Steam Deck would blow his mind.
I would’ve shat myself over VR and so many other things.
He would admire my game library, maybe even hate me for it. I wouldn’t tell him I don’t play any of them.
Look man, If I wanted to disappoint two people at once I’d take my parents out for dinner or find a couple of neurotypicals and have a threesome.
If dinner goes well enough with your parents, maybe you can kill two birds with one stone.
Made me actually laugh out loud
huuuuuuuuuuurk
Tua!
that gave me a chuckle-urp. nice.
I’m going to enjoy torturing my 14-year-old self. My 14-year-old self was a shithead. But I was raised in a conservative Catholic house, and at that age I firmly embraced the version of reality common among the Fox News set. I was that annoying conservative high schooler. Sure I was repping hard, but I was still an idiot.
Now I’m a late-30s trans woman, about to celebrate 8 years of marriage to my wonderful husband.
The things I can say. I’m going to haunt this kid’s dreams.
I’m happy you found yourself and your husband, that’s awesome!
Thanks!
I’m not sure if I’d be proud or disappointed.
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By age 10, I’d already decided I was going to kill myself at 24, and I was looking forward to it, assuming I hadn’t already died by then. By my 14th birthday, I was doing my annual countdown from 10.
I don’t know if I’d be excited that I found things that made life worth living, or consider myself a failure for getting it wrong when I tried. Reflecting on that age, I don’t think myself an idiot or anything, I just see a kid who tried their best with what they had, and had already given up on what seemed like an inescapable situation. I feel bad for 14 year-old me, and I’m not sure I’d be able to face that kid without feeling completely destroyed.
So, I don’t know if there’s some kind of psychological phenomenon at play here — but it sounds like something very similar to a circumstance my mom went through (albeit, the stakes were much different).
She used to smoke, and when she decided she wanted to have a kid (eventually me) she gave it up. What she told herself was that if she quit and wanted to start back up at 65, ok? Who cares, she’s already old at that point so it’s not like it’s worse than having smoked for the previous 45 years.
Eventually never went back to them. She is actually repulsed by cigarettes now.
I think what I take from that is my mom didn’t really give up cigarettes, at least not psychologically. In her mind she could go back at any time and there was no issue, she’d just go back to not smoking (and she didn’t even do that, she just quit). I wonder if maybe a similar thing happened to you here? You gave yourself a goal so far ahead in the future that you also gave yourself ample time to grow — even if that goal was inevitably death. It’s almost like sewerslide was your way of equalizing the playing field.
Idk, I could be wrong — I’m glad you didn’t go through with it, though.
I accredit proper medication, scaring the shit out of my friends and family who I thought would have been happy if I were gone, and LARGELY that change in mindset that you’re talking about.
Thank you for sharing that story
I’m playing video games all day every day. He would be amazed. It’s adult me knows it’s bad
14-year-old me would not be impressed, but 24-year-old me would be.
The difference is experience and understanding what the hell we’re all up against.
Listen, I’m not here to impress a mentally ill child. But also no.
ftfy.
Look, I’d like to see that little shit do better.
I’m one of the few people who’s 14 yo self would fucking admire, mostly for stupid teenage horny reasons but also video game industry reasons.
You work in the cultured video game industry?
You’re doing the lord’s work 🫡
Even better (by 14 yo me standards), I met a pretty girl online, whom I later married and got into the industry (albeit, less cultured? Lol).
When questioned by my childhood self why I am not making games myself, I point to my backlog and we both nod in agreement before I thoroughly wreck him in Smash Bros.
If I had advice to give my younger self, I’d have to be very careful about the whole causality problem. At 45 I have two awesome kids aged 5 and 2. I have an amazing wife who multiplies both my happiness and ability to make a living. Both my wife and I were previously divorced. I wouldn’t change anything that might prevent me from meeting her and helping to bring my kids into the world.
If I had perfect temporal guardrails that would ensure this family path, I’d tell my younger self that it works out pretty well in the long run, but huge mistakes were needed to forge me into who I am today. Also, buy Nvidia stock.
I dunno about “proud”, 14-year-old me was around when saying “gay” was usually a punchline, or an insult. Maybe he’d be surprised about my ex-boyfriend. Or my current boyfriend.
Whatever problems he might have with my current self, he’d definitely come around after all the insider trading information I’d give him. Then he’d definitely be quick about doing things I actually wish I’d done sooner, like quitting marching band and switching to theatre. Focusing on trades, rather than racking up debt, then later burning out trying to get an engineering degree. Things like that.
I think 14 year old me would be most disappointed that I’m no longer catholic. She’d probably be a mix of angry and excited that I’m trans. Shocked and confused when I explain to her that her parents’ marriage is really really bad and she’s going to need therapy for the way her dad treats her. Then she’s going to be kinda pissed when I tell her that her dad is right about her needing to do better in school, it’s just that he shouldn’t be yelling at her until she self harms about it. She’ll be proud I’m still friends with her friends and that I got out of Ohio to somewhere cool.
Oh then she’s going to be incredibly disappointed I married someone with tattoos, especially since I’ll call her a classist little shit about it, and that I never had kids.
14-year-old me would also be very disappointed that I’m no longer religious. She would be afraid for me because I have gay and trans friends.
Poor little Nicki. She was brainwashed and didn’t know better. Fortunately, she got better after her first semester at university.
He’d probably give suicide a lot more consideration.
14 year old me would be very impressed with the things I have in my garage, but I’m not sure he’d be impressed with a depressed man in his 30’s.
Honestly 14 year old me might not like what I do, but I wish she could have found out then what I would finally become.
