This past weekend, I made it through one of the big bosses in act 3 of Baulder’s Gate. I wept like a child over Karlach’s monologue about how she still feels empty after killing the guy who sold her to devils, and it didn’t change the fact that she was going to die. What’s the point of it all?
I was at a family wedding this weekend, and I teared up at the speeches made by the maid of honor and the best man.
Like just a tear or two or full on weep? Because I would prefer not to dig in my memory for weeping, but just a tear or two? Cat claw in boob.
Playing Clair Obscur: Expedition 33. Drawn in by the grandness of the story but it all came down to the one thing that hits close to home for most everyone

Okay so I cry about everything, but this year the thing that has made me cry the most (and most recently) is heated rivalry. Even on my umpteenth reheat. No shame, I just love that show and I’m often overwhelmed by the amount of love within the show, that went into making that show, and that people feel towards it. Genuine joy is such a hard thing to come by these days.
Last week I learned one of my cats (my first feline buddy) has cancer. He’s 14, so we are going to keep him as comfortable as we can until he’s in too much pain.
Well, my mom died two weeks ago and my girlfriend of eight years left me this week, I suspect once the shock wears off the flood gates will open.
My input is meaningless, but thought it might be worth sharing from experience that everyone processes grief differently, and in their own time.
A support network helps, whether that be friends, family, or even a professional. Doesn’t need to be right away, but having someone to talk to or confide in when the time is right can help with managing grief in a healthy way before the proverbial levee breaks.
HUG
About 3 years ago, when my favorite uncle died unexpectedly
Watching The Pitt, season 1 hit me in the gut
Telling my therapist that my birthday is coming up and I just wish there was one person besides my dad who would wish me a happy birthday or want to go hiking or something with me on my birthday but I don’t have any friends or anyone in my life who would even know I have a birthday.
Happy early birthday! You’ll find your people one day, don’t give up :)
It shouldn’t be too hard to find people to go on a hike. Maybe look around for local hiking communities?
Friends aren’t magic, they don’t appear out of thin air, you have to find them and make them yourself. Go out, find a group, and let things happen
I’ve been working on making connections and trying to spend time with people. I definitely don’t sit around at home and hide away. Friendships also don’t just happen out of thin air, and I don’t have any yet.
Yet!
Last week was my 15th wedding anniversary. Currently going through a divorce because my spouse cheated and left to shack up with a younger model.
Thinking about my Dad always gets me. Passed away 2 years ago today in his sleep. Died too young.
The scene in Blade Runner 2049: The moment he realizes the advertisement called him Joe and it was all a lie, and decides to do the right thing any way. Can’t seem to find an unedited clip.
https://youtu.be/gX3bpVC7C14I went to apply for a US Passport…
Then I remembered that a lot of immigrants from Fujian are undocumented…
And like… I have been in highschool with these kids whose parents are from Fujian…
And I kinda just felt sad…
Cuz I’m also from China, but I got lucky and got citizenship… and they didn’t…
So I just cried… :/
Cuz I can imagine what it’s like with the uncertaintly
I mean… I kinda feel the same in some ways… I mean with current political atmosphere… who even knows anymore… I could get denaturalized and end up the same as them anyways…
I’m sorry that my country is such a piece of shit to good people.
I wish there were more people like you in it.
I was listening to music yesterday and one of the album covers had a really pretty photo of the artist on it and I really wanted to look like her but I don’t
I got kicked in both balls and a hemorrhoid at the same time.
that should get you an achievement or something honestly
All I got was new pants.






