It looks like some hemorrhoid went through your profile and downvoted everything, adding a sockpuppet account as well. Forgive them - they’re going through a lot right now, what with the hemorrhoid and all

You write it very well!

I admit I’m not familiar with this world of teaching, but it seems like getting TEFL certified is a requirement for some places. I looked a bit at postings online, and from a quick glance it seems most of the UK postings require the CELTA certification? And the cost of this could be a deterrent for you

There’s this posting which doesn’t require any certification, but this review of the company had a specific complaint at the end that would scare me away, personally.

Here’s someone from Russia last year asking for advice. The commenters there suggest Vietnam, and I’ve seen elsewhere that east Asian countries have more demand. I have no idea if that would appeal to you - could you imagine yourself living there? This person has a bachelor’s degree in an unrelated field, so their path may be different than yours. Still, the non-native speaker wiki mentioned there could be a good read for you

I haven’t looked at the possibility of teaching russian, but I imagine you would also do well at that if the demand is there

If you’re serious about wanting out, the folks on the subreddit IWantOut will have better advice than mine 😅

For what it’s worth, I’ve struggled to get on a solid path too, and it always bothered me when people would give advice that sounded nice but was realistically never viable. I apologize if I’m doing the same now. I’m sorry your situation is so hard. You don’t deserve to cry when your only crimes were the circumstances of your birth. I’m glad you come here to vent, and I hope you continue to do so as long as it continues to help. Be well <3

You speak english fluently, and I assume you speak russian as well. That’s an impressive skill to me! What about getting a TEFL certificate? I’ve known a few people who did that while living nomadically in vans. Is that viable for russian citizens?

I appreciate your presence on this website a lot and that’s a genuine sentiment. Most of your other posts are pretty bleak (and I appreciate them too) but this one got a good giggle out of me xD “Why” lol

Homie, what you deserve is ‘better’. I feel for you

I see you around here a lot. I feel a great draw to try to soothe your torment but I never know how. I always wish the best for you

I’ve known a few people who lost their battle, and their families are never the same. It stays with you. On holidays, birthdays, life events. It’s been over ten years for me and it’s still there nearly every day. I know they have thoughts like

• “I wish you were here Travis, you would have been my best man”
• “I wish you could see the view on this hike, Katie. Happy birthday”
• “I wish you could see me graduate, dad. I hope you’d be proud of me”

One of these people inspired her mother to her own thankfully unsuccessful attempt. It ripples out in ways these people didn’t consider

BUT I also have friends, one very close, who survived their attempts, and are grateful they did. Two of them just got married to incredible people. It’s still there for them, but it’s gotten much smaller, and they’re living legitimately very happy lives. They went back to school, graduated, married, and have plans to travel the world

Each of them who lived got help. Big people in coats put them in a place and gave them magic socks. You say it makes it harder to emigrate, but to not mince words, so does being dead. I’m guilty of the same thing - letting a big consequence prevent me from acting on an even bigger consequence. But every day I’m sad about the people who died, I’m so incredibly grateful to the people who asked for help. I would be lost without the one, especially

I wish the best for you on your journey, and I hope to continue seeing you around here