Jesus fuck, no!

Bro wat

Yeah sometimes, I mean not specifically that, thats pretty specific, but i think getting thoughts like that is fairly common.

When im the passenger in a car I think theres nothing actually stopping me from just grabbing the wheel and swerving us into oncoming traffic. Im stronger than the driver and have the element of surprise. I could end so many lives and ruin countless more in about 2 seconds of a really easy move.

Then I shit myself because every single car could do that at any moment.

Yes it’s pretty normal. You can kind of train yourself to look at the thought while it happens and say wow, brain, what was that? And your brain will say I have no idea, and eventually it will stop happening.

you need some help

When I was a kid, there was a period during which I was convinced my dad was planning to kill me (or have me killed). I’d have regular nightmares about it.

I have one [non-dream] memory in particular where we were walking through Belfast on a sunny Sunday afternoon, it was pretty much empty except for us. We were walking along a path holding hands (I was like 6 or 7), and an alleyway opened to the right of me, and I thought “this is it…” and was expecting a masked gunman to come out, and for my dad to let go of my hand and step aside, his job now complete. Genuinely thought that was about to happen and almost had a panic attack. No idea why I thought that, or why I eventually stopped thinking it.

I was later diagnosed with all sorts of neuro/psych shenanigans, so I guess it was probably that. I still have intrusive thoughts, but I’ve had therapy so I’m a bit better able to manage them. CBT might do you some good if you have access to a shrink. You can even do most of it on your own, or with a bit of guidance from someone else who’s already done it.

I don’t know if it’s normal, but intrusive thoughts like that happen to, I’d imagine, a lot of people.

The other commenter that said you can train yourself to sort of step back from them isn’t wrong. That’s a big sort of “mindfulness” thing. Maybe that can help you and I would advise looking up some info on it.

Personally, I bounce off of the whole of mindfulness, it just doesn’t work for me. What’s helped me is to structure some sort of way to move away from that thought. In my head, I have the vague script of the garbage thoughts written on a huge mental chalkboard - like the ones in college lecture halls - and I will imagine a big eraser just cleaning the whole thing. Like a sort of power washing simulator thing. Haha.

But I would say maybe check yourself for habit revolving around these thoughts. Like are you checking your door is locked for sure or putting your blankets in just the right way? It might be more of an OCD behavior in that case, and I would definitely suggest talking to a professional.

Sadly, stuff like this does happen in real life. I usually only think about it shortly after seeing news stories where this stuff happens, though.

Back when I still had roommates off craigslist the thought was semi regular, yeah.

Yes I do, but only rarely, and for each time I do, I have 100s of thoughts where they are just good and kind. Having them frequently or having an intense emotional reaction to this thought can be a cause to seek out a therapist