I don’t mean like how happy you are today. I mean overall, are you satisfied with everything you are up until this point? For me, for an example, I have a decent job that keeps my head just above water. I have a loving family that I see every couple months or weeks. I have the freedom to do what I want, when I want. But, overall, I’m sort of lonely and exhausted from constantly working. So, on a scale of 1 to 10, I’m about a 6.
Sorry to hear that.
I wish you the best for years to come.
You might want to consider meditation, it helps a lot with dealing with difficult situations.
You can try Anapana in the beginning and Vipassana later, but really any meditation will help.
The key is to start small, maybe 2-3 minutes and gradually extend it.
Try not to stress about it and test which technique works best for you.
Ping me if you want to talk some more about this or anything else ;-)