Holding Out for a Hero in my ass

I’m a production artist working for a small production studio. I work from home and my hours are super flexible. So long as I get my work done they don’t care how long and when I start work. The pay kinda sucks since it’s about $30k a year but I’m a recent graduate so I understand.

Two classmates got into a fight in class and I bailed out of there because I wanted no part of it. The teacher got mad at me for bailing and said I should’ve done something. I was 12, what do you think I could do?

Possibly start packing for my move to a new city for work. Either that or lie in bed and play on my phone.

My anxiety almost acted up again today and my afternoon was kind of sucky during that. But, I got it under control after an hour so I just went back to normal disassociation. Not happy, sad, or anything. Just…nothing. How are you?

Stay inside. That’s all. The only thing that changes is not as much walking but where I live nothing is walkable so nothing changes much anyways.

I found a porno mag my sisters boyfriend had

I took my mom and aunty to dinner and they were playing a movie in the resteraunt which was a nice surprise. Then, after dinner we went to a town gathering then a family gathering. It was pretty fun.

I’d like to travel more this year. I have a list of places I’d like to see.

• Fremont Street in Las Vegas
• Hawaii
• Big Ben
• Akihabara
• A sunlit beach

Now that I have steady work, I can finally afford these things.

Wallpaper engine

To have my dad and aunt cured of their disease so I can finally feel happiness again

I’ve been working on a game reminiscent of Streets of Rage and Paper Mario. A beat-me-up RPG in Unity but I haven’t worked on It in a while due to work and burnout.

One dream I remember is something I still wonder about. Was it some sort of sign or does it represent something? I dunno. But I remember I was in some sort of giant, deserted resort. Think The Shining. I remember seeing a red fox that kept bothering me. Whenever I would see this fox, it would yelp and bark which would call something. I don’t know what this was that it was calling, but when it got near, I remember I would hear something like a distorted violin play along with large footsteps and growls. I would run away from thing and I could hear it behind me chasing me. After running away from this thing and hiding in a small store that was filled with the evening sun, I remember seeing the shadow of this thing pass by the window. It was a large monster. And, followed behind it, and this is where I’m wondering what the meaning behind this is, I saw four women dressed in red jackets. They were jogging behind this thing. Three of them came into the store I was hiding in and found me. Each one had their own personality. One seemed to like me, one seemed to hate me, and one didn’t pay any attention to me. I don’t know about the fourth one. And, strangely enough, they were all Asian. Now, I’m not Asian so I don’t know if that has anything to do with anything. But, when I saw these women, I immediately thought of the fox. They were the foxes in human form that were chasing me.

YouTube, Lemmy, sometimes playing Runescape or Gamecube games, FL studio, reading stuff on Wikipedia. Very rarely looking at naked people

Yeah, like a mom and pop place

PT. A horror game from Kojima and Guillermo Del Toro and from the Silent Hill series? Yes please

I’m working on an audiobook of a novel I wrote. I have another recording session today with voice actors who play my characters!

Buying a GOOD computer chair. You don’t know the pain you’re causing yourself until you wake up with a sore lower back.

The company that lost my $3500 computer a month ago finally sent off a free replacement and it’ll be here next week! Normally, they replace it with a refurbished one but since they don’t have any, I’m getting a new one.

Fishing Vibes from Sonic Frontiers. Seeing Sirena Beach reminded of it