I’ve been going through a lot recently. Multiple jobs, bills piling up, and my current relationship is falling apart. I want to cry. To bawl my eyes out and scream at the top of my lungs. But I can’t. It feels like there’s a wall between me and my emotions. Anyone else deal with this?
I used to have that problem. It was an ongoing problem for pretty much my entire teenage years through the first half of my twenties. Then I started estrogen and suddenly I was crying basically every day, even at dumb stuff. That took a couple of years to even out, and now I cry easily, but not at the drop of a hat.
I don’t know if an androgenic endocrine profile standing between me and the ability to cry, or if becoming myself unlocked that ability. Either way, being able to cry when I need to has been incredibly cathartic.